Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Escapism...

It's nearly 1 am and I should be focusing on my damn job applications instead of blogging. But seeing how I can't seem to focus on the readings at hand, and that I am getting increasingly unproductive on Words, I figured I should just let off some steam here. Well, it isn't exactly steam either, seeing how I am not exactly frustrated or particularly upset about anything right now. A lot has happened in the past couple of months, as mentioned numerous times in previous posts. One issue that has cropped up quite a bit was the manner in which I dealt with my relationships. I've been accused of being negligent, callous, rude, arsehole-ish... basically every known negative adjective. Well, I do concede on being somewhat self absorbed... let's just say it takes two hands to clap and I am not the only one with issues. I'll discuss this in detail in a future post. This is, in actual fact, a warm up post. It's amazing how fast one's writing skills go all rusty after months/years of neglect. Till the next post! 

I vaguely remember ending all my blog posts with a witty one-liner. Sadly, given the late hour and my fatigued state. This will have to suffice for now. 


"I'll be back." 
T-800 

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

An Old Friend

I logged in my very first blog entry on the 20th of September 2007, approximately 6 years and 1 month ago. A lot has happened since that first entry, though much of what has happened hasn't been entirely productive. I have good times and bad times, gained weight and lost (sadly not much) weight, fell out with friends and made new ones... indeed quite a bit has happened. I find reading through my old posts strangely therapeutic and altogether depressing. The one thing I keep asking myself is what happened to that 20 year old who wanted to change the world not too long ago? If I were to hazard a guess, I'd say he got distracted by fleeting fantasies of success and smitten by delusions of grandeur to make his own road. Well, it's not like I didn't try... I did, but probably not hard enough. I've decided to mothball my entrepreneurial endeavors for the time being. I am in the midst of tidying up my resume and will strive to secure a regular job by mid-november. There's a lot that needs to be done and a lot I would like to type about; my run-in with URA, my entrepreneurial journey and something a little closer to my heart, the highs and (mostly lows) of my dismal love life. Well baby steps I'd say. I am off to lunch now :) 


Mum, Me and the latest addition to our family... Gus :) 

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Akan Datang :)



Back from the Dead. Again.

I made a commitment to start blogging again a while back. I obviously failed in keeping to that commitment. Anyhow, I am back for good. Granted that I am not embarking on my own little social enterprise, it's best if I start honing my writing skills back again. I stopped blogging a while back because... well... let's just say I had issues that needed settling. Now that most of my emotional baggage has now been flung out of the window, I think I am ready to start blogging all over again :) We're almost halfway through the year and things have been interesting so far. I can't wait to write about it in my latter posts. Stay tune for that :) 

Peace out :)

Thursday, March 7, 2013

Post Breakfast Reflections

Reality. Reality is the 3 ton truck that comes rolling down at a breakneck speed and smashes into you before you even realize it's even there. Reality is painful and mediocre. Reality is... where all your fantastic dreams go to die. 

The only reason why I am writing this post at 8.30am in the morning is because I decided to skip my morning run and whilst trying to enjoy a quiet peaceful morning before heading in to work, I had inadvertently pissed off my mum with a comment I made. Something about "Being commanded around by women at work and at home, so please leave me alone for an hour...". Not the smartest nor nicest thing to hear your son say at 8am in the morning after preparing the day's lunch for him to take with him to work. 

I apologize unreservedly for the comment mum. It was tactless and pretty mean. More importantly, that wasn't what I meant when I said it. 

I am extremely frustrated about almost everything that's going on around me now. The mediocre existence, working ridiculous hours for pittance, the disruption to my exercise schedule... everything. I have had things pretty easy for the better part of my life and I am still trying to adapt to this whole "your time and life does not belong to you" bit. I, unfortunately, have become extremely overprotective of my "personal time" at the expense of infringing on others... especially you mum. To be frank you're one of the few people I am pretty cool with chilling out at the end of a long day. Thanks mum for everything and sorry about that "domineering women" comment again. Though you must concede you can be quite assertive at times :)

Anyway this has been pretty cathartic. I think I can make this a regular thing once more :) Alrighty... back to life :( 

Saturday, September 29, 2012

Family... pfft...

Dad told me there will come a time where we sit back and watch the whole house of cards come crashing down... didn't think that'll happen so soon :)


Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Online Friends

I have an intense dislike for some of the people I've added on Facebook and twitter. And the stronger the dislike, the stronger it seems is the compulsion to follow their every move... their every stupid, obnoxious comment.

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Rejections

Another one bites the dust.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Questions.

The job hunt hasn't been going exactly as planned and it's times like these when one starts to doubt one's capabilities and self worth. As I stand idly by and watch as my friends get one offer after the other... I find myself asking time and time again... "What happened?" It's wasn't too long ago when I stood at the precipice of teenage-hood-dom (or whatever you call it...), with that sense of invulnerability... believing that there was nothing that could get me down. 5 years later, here I am lost... pretty much undecided and clueless about where I am and what my role in this universe is. Every "thank you for your interest but unfortunately you're not the best match" letter only serves to reaffirm the sad state of my life. Having said that, I've decided to start writing again. I started this blog 5 years ago when I was still serving my nation. Maybe through here, I will find some clue about what to do next. 

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Disappointment

So... I received my 2nd job rejection letter ever last night. The first was for a position as a reporter at the Straits Times and the 2nd for a position as a reporter too at Today. In all honesty, the second rejection sucked more cause the rejection came AFTER I was tasked to write an essay on a topic provided by the peeps in charge. At least for the rejection from ST, I could blame my shoddy grades and go on about how "if given a chance, I'd be able to prove them wrong etc. etc." I sadly can't do the same for the latter. If there's anything I've learnt over the past couple years in my life, it's how to handle to rejection and failure; shrug it off and move on. Anyway... I've decided to publish the little essay I wrote right here. That way, this little article of mind will get some readership before fading into oblivion in some cupboard or hard drive somewhere. :)

Globalization has made young Singaporeans more apathetic about their country. Do you agree? (800 word limit) 

I feel that the experience of globalization itself has helped the youth of Singapore become more engaged with the environment around them. With increased integration between countries and communities, it is of little surprise that the youth of Singapore are now more exposed to the world around them than before. Such exposure makes it very difficult to be ignorant about what goes around the world, let alone in Singapore.

With a gloomy global economic outlook and decreasing employment opportunities, it comes as no surprise to many that young Singaporeans feel lost about their place in society. However, the attitudes of young Singaporeans today reflect a level of dissatisfaction with the current status quo as opposed to a complete state of apathy in public affairs. I believe that the youth of Singapore are slowly but surely beginning to understand that they need to be the change that they want to see in the system.

In a survey conducted by researchers from NUS, it was found that whilst political activism was low amongst Singaporeans in general, the younger generation was more politically active than their elders. Furthermore, the survey also showed that young Singaporeans consumed more political content than the older generation and made better use of online and alternative media resources. As such, younger Singaporeans are inadvertently subjected to greater exposure to concepts and ideals from all around the world. The elections of 2011 saw Generation Y going to the polls for the first time. More significantly, analysts described the political discourse and widespread public discussion of opinions in the lead-up to that election as unprecedented. The high level of participation in political discourse, evident during the recent elections, is often the clearest indicator of decreasing apathy in the populace. Increased connectivity and greater discussion through the sharing of articles through popular social networking sites are evidence of how the globalization of the internet has changed the way Singaporean youth handle current affairs.

The globalization of education is enabling greater electronic literacy with resources from all over the world being made more accessible to students. Universities in Singapore are increasing the number of foreign exchange programmes, as well as hosting more forums and international events. In addition, more Singaporeans are also pursuing higher education overseas. The increased connectivity with youth around the world through such programmes leaves little excuse for ignorance.

Political involvement is not the only way youth can be involved in the national affairs. Alfian Sa'at, a renowned local writer, described how dissenting voices, such as “civil society activists and cultural workers should come together instead focus on becoming autonomous pace-setters for social change” instead of participating in politics. Today, more youth are participating in non-political events. The Pink Dot celebrations, the shark-fin ban movement and the call for increased welfare for domestic helpers are all examples of increased participation by young Singaporeans in non-political causes. These forms of social activism thus reflect a decrease in apathy amongst Singaporean youth.

However, there are a large number of youth who chose not to participate actively in the affairs of the country. If globalization isn't the cause of this disengagement, what then could be the cause of this? Over time, some Singaporeans have become more individualistic and give priority to issues they believe would improve their lifestyles. A university student, in an interview last year with Yahoo! Singapore, best summed this up, "I think we have been socialised to think more of the bread and butter issues. That's how Singapore has been for the past 40 years." Getting a job, raising a family and worrying about housing are just some of the many concerns that weigh more heavily on the minds of young Singaporeans. It is a surprise perhaps that there are Singaporeans who are so actively involved in the affairs of the country. 

I believe that globalization is indeed a major force shaping the youth of Singapore today. The age of apathy has passed and it will not be long before more young Singaporeans start making their opinions heard. Given the strong opinions of the younger generation echoing through the various media channels, "apathetic" would be the last word I would use to describe the youth of Singapore today. As we start to emerge from the shadows of the generation of baby boomers and take over the mantle of leadership of this country, I believe that it is pertinent for this generation to be able to think critically and make constructive contributions instead.