I make my own roads.

Life is fair. Life isn't fair. 

Regardless of that, there are choices that must be made, paths that need to be walked. 

Sometimes it all comes back to you twice as fast, twice as hard. 

The bitter aftertaste of life's nasty little twists... 

Can be so nauseating at times. 

It can be so hard to forget; 

So hard to wonder what should have been, what could have been. 

Whatever tears I have has been shed,

And all my wounds have long since healed.

Yet the scars remain and the heart still aches. 

I am going to leave that behind. 

I am going to walk on. 

I am going to run.

And to life's little ironies and fate's cruel plans, 

"Game on."

Week 7

“When Christians came to these islands they said, take this Bible, close your eyes and pray, so we did; when we opened our eyes all we had was this Bible and the white man had all our Islands.” 

- Hawaiian Kahuna

Quote of the week... I wish things were to go slightly smoother... too many bumps in the road... can be rather disheartening at times. 

Aviva Half-Ironman Singapore 70.3: Reflections

I crashed. I messed up the race due to circumstances I could have avoided. I was over-confident. I failed to take the necessary provisions to go that step further. Putting that aside, there was some good that came out of this race too. I experience what it was like to crash at a pretty high speed in the middle of a half-ironman lake (Painful... that was about it), I learnt the consequences of poor pre-race preparation. The most important thing however was that I met really great people this time around, be it the Military guys from SAFSA, the Peeps from NUS Aquathlon or my fellow triathletes from TRI 21, you guys certainly made the journey so much more enjoyable. 

Triathlon is a truly remarkable sport, the half ironman one level up and the ironman experience (as I will experience in about a years time) a whole new game in its own right. The sport celebrates the spirit of athletic excellence; both the physical endurance and mental tenacity needed to undergo a race of such intensity. It isn't about finishing the race nor trying to win the race (as I have learnt) but its about doing your best and putting in the effort and making that commitment to accomplish whatever you have set your sights on doing. To all who participated in this year's half ironman, cheers to a job well done:) Now to find that training program for that 22nd of March race...

Week 3

Tutorials have already begun and I am still struggling with the many readings they have given us. Time is a commodity I simply do not have enough of. Its amazing how the principles of economics applies so relevantly to my academic life. So much reading done, yet so little knowledge gained. I blame it solely on the 12-14 hours sleep sessions I take on a daily basis... severely detrimental. Alright... 5 min break up... back to a quick one hour of reading before heading to the pool :)

Trepidation

Less than two weeks... and I am not even up to scratch yet.. Shucks I need a miracle!

Adrenaline Rush

Had a great ride this morning with Norman, Des and JJ, with an average speed of approximately 33-35 km/h... total distance approximately 83km for me. (: Kudos to Norman for doing it without cleats haha... Tomorrow marks the official start of the school semester, its been a while since I hit the books so I am just hoping things go according to plan. Film and History... I hope they do have good flicks (:

What a wreck

I can't seem to smile right... All I can hope for now is some "photoshop magic" :)

Only with an ending can one have a new beginning :)

Yesterday marked the final day of hall orientation and despite the hiccups along the way, punctuated by my occasional grunts of unhappiness at the most , I must say that the whole experience has most certainly been an extremely fruitful and memorable one. Some may say that the entire experience was a childish affair, perhaps even a terrible waste of a precious weekend. I would be lying if I denied I ever had any inclinations to think that way too but I guess one can only make his/her conclusion upon going through the whole "thingy". I made mine and I guess it is only for me to know and you to try and find out. Thank you Seniors (If you guys ever do chance upon my blog) for making our initiation into TH such a heart-warming one :) 

"Fuego"

I am glad I made the right choices :)

Hall Orientation Day 2... GONE....

I went to bed last night with a stuffed nose and slight giddiness... and awoke this morning with a whole host of other symptoms associated with the flu... Its been a while since I felt like this.... gentle reminder of what its like to be human :(

Moving on

I did it once but I couldn't find the strength and self-determination to see it through. The whole experience has been a myriad of conflicting emotions for me... one filled with its fair share of highs and lows. It wasn't the good feelings or the bad experiences which got to me but ironically the lack of any feeling or attachment at all and the occasional profound discomfort I felt at times which finally got to me. I am not going to put all my money on it being permanent but one thing I can and will say for sure... somethings will change. Perhaps its the familiarity of it all which still holds me back but as the saying goes, "time will erode even the strongest of feelings". Not being the most emotionally charged or sentimental of human beings will certainly make this a lot less trickier but most definitely not any easier. It could be that I am not what I made myself out to be all this time, or it could be just that I lacked the strength in pursuing what I really am. You decide.