Thoughts

Someone told me a really long time ago, the best stories told are those laden with emotions. I am upset with my life so far. I am unhappy with the choices I have made and the predicament I am in. I worry every day that with each tick of the clock, the further I am from my goal in life. I try so hard to make everything look alright on the outside but I think the shell's starting to crack, and the polished paintwork is starting to come apart. I have done a good job with the design and architecture but I simply lack the materials to build that dream house. I thought I was strong, till I looked in the mirror and saw me in pieces. So many opportunities were given but i snubbed every single one of them. I don't want to be the me I see in the mirror years from now. A broken compass is what I am. Foundering and aimless. I wished I'd done things differently. I really do. 

"I see u going down that road... you're heading for deep shit and you know it. Look at you now, you have nothing to your name and yet you remain so stubborn... I put in so much time and energy into you... I hope you have a goal... You'd better have a goal." 

- Anonymous 

The Problem with having an abcense of bumps in the road

I am going to keep this short... or as short as I possible can...

There was this little sparrow who flew around with this whole entire flock of other sparrows for the large part of his little boring life. One day, the little bird chanced upon a small flock of pretty looking woodpeckers playing around in the woods. The woodpeckers welcomed the sparrow with open wings and together the sparrow and the woodpeckers fluttered around, hunting and playing basically enjoying the time of their lives. The woodpeckers showered the sparrow with almost unconditional love, teaching him lessons in life he never expected from well... a bunch of fun loving woodpeckers. The sparrow fully immersed himself in the woodpecker culture, learning the tricks of the trait... places to find the best food etc... He enjoyed his time thoroughly and in the process became really attached and close to well some of these pretty little birds. however as we all know summer passes by pretty fast and its is inevitable that the sparrow must make a desicion soon. Stay and live out the rest of his life with his new found friends or take off and leave with his flock whom he has known all his life....

oh well...

Dream

Drifting away, I close my eyes

Darkness encroaches as slow as ice

There isn't warmth nor clear blue skies

Just a piercing chill and upon that gentle rise

I shiver and tremble as the cold wind blows

The clouds darkening in the setting sun's glow

All alone in this bitter bleak night

Desperate to awake at tomorrow's first light

-Jason Yip

Crossroads... with no Traffic lights...

A crossroad without traffic lights is a disaster waiting to happen for the man standing in the middle of it all.

4 vehicles each travelling at different speeds with a different objective in mind intersecting at a single crossroad junction.

The traffic lights are all out... the electrical surge was simply too much for the miserable three bulbs.

The man closes his eyes as he awaits the impending crash...

He knew the consequences of his actions but he never expected to be facing the music so soon... so suddenly...

Just another entry...

I realised I have it. Damn. For the last three weeks I have been deluding myself. Wishing it'll just all go away.... I thought it did... It did in fact... but it came back. Why do the worse things happen at the most crucial of times... 2-3 weeks to heal and 4 days of unbearable pain... and my pain threshold is literally sub-zero. Damn Damn Damn...

On a lighter and less painful note, I must tell you that coffee at Siglap was great!! I learnt a lot about you and I hope it was the same for you. You certainly did put a lot of things into perspective and it is heartening to know that there is someone out there who shares my sentiments almost exactly... I tried really hard to find a quote but none could truly express what I really wanna tell yar.. but the lyrics to this song sure come close enough... amazingly... :P

Cassie - "Is it you"

I'm looking for a lover not a friend

Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to

I'm looking for someone who won't pretend

Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,

Someone who can keep it real and who knows the way

The way i like to have it my way

And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,

Wants to share, shows he cares

Thinkin your the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me?

Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)

Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)

Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains

Someone who I can cry with through the night

Someone who I can trust who's hardest right

And I'm looking for someone

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,

Someone who can keep me real and who knows the way

The way i like to have it my way

And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,

Want to share, shows he cares

Thinkin your the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me?

Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me?

Could you be this one I need?

Take for granted how much I care (How much I care)

And appreciates that I'm there

Someone who listens

And someone I can call who isn't afraid of love to share

Is it you? is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me?

Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?

Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for

Could you be the one for me?

Could you be the one I need?

I usually frown upon song quotations but... the lyrics to this particular song spells out more or less the esscence of what I wanna get across... the nice beat helps too :) :P Till our next coffee session!!!

Really Overdue post...

I have come to realise that blogging perhaps isn't something I am cut out to sustain. I simply can't seem to find the time anymore to pen my thoughts down and get entries up before forgetting about it entirely.


The last few weeks have been pretty busy for me. I turned 21 on the 8th of March and for at least two weeks before that I got a taste of what its like to organize an event for a significant number of people in a very short time (I really started kinda late.. so... my fault i guess). Before I continue let me once again thank my guests to both functions, the management and staff of the Tien Court and Amara Sanctuary, my parents and my little sister for helping me make this event a tremendous success... despite the occasional bumps :P I'll try and get some pictures up soon but this will have to wait till the photographer gets back from Taiwan.


My internship will end by this month so soon I'll have back the freedom of daylight... Turning 21 is kinda like having the keys to a new car ( :P ) The inital excitment and joy doesn't wear off for a couple of days but after the true cost emerges.... oh u get the picture...


On a different note... I really need to jumpstart my excercise regeime...I have been neglecting my road bike and running shoes for too long... My grandparents are getting happy with the way I look and I know its not a good sign... haha :P till the next entry


“Many persons have a wrong idea of what constitutes true happiness. It is not attained through self-gratification but through fidelity to a worthy purpose.”

- Helen Keller, US blind & deaf educator (1880 - 1968)


I hope I am getting closer to that purpose...

THANKS!!!! for helping me make my 21st a very very memorable one!!!

To all those who came for my little gathering, Thanks again for the great company and well wishes. Thanks for the gifts as well!!! I will be putting up some of the photos here soon so yup till then!!!

Thanks...

Nothing fancy nor long. Just a short simple, heartfelt note. Isaac, Mikey, Elaine, Pei qun, Rui Ying and Rui yi, Thanks for the effort and hardwork, it really means a alot. :P Cheers!

Its the Final Countdown!!!!

21 in 4 days time. I have been pretty much immersed in a flurry of activities these few weeks... an increased workload and immense amounts of party planning... I just hope everything turns out alright in the end. :P 4 days...

I started doing the YMCA Dress ups from a very young age...

2007....

Finally 2008...

Me and my costume fetish hahaha....

North Korean Dictator Arrested by Muay Thai Boxer and Cowboy

Had to post this :)

Love from mum and dad :)

15th March... I can't wait... :)

Sunday Post :)

So much to do in so little time... Time isn't a commodity I can afford this week.