Moving on

I did it once but I couldn't find the strength and self-determination to see it through. The whole experience has been a myriad of conflicting emotions for me... one filled with its fair share of highs and lows. It wasn't the good feelings or the bad experiences which got to me but ironically the lack of any feeling or attachment at all and the occasional profound discomfort I felt at times which finally got to me. I am not going to put all my money on it being permanent but one thing I can and will say for sure... somethings will change. Perhaps its the familiarity of it all which still holds me back but as the saying goes, "time will erode even the strongest of feelings". Not being the most emotionally charged or sentimental of human beings will certainly make this a lot less trickier but most definitely not any easier. It could be that I am not what I made myself out to be all this time, or it could be just that I lacked the strength in pursuing what I really am. You decide.