2010

My mum decided to shift the full length mirror to the corner of my room. I took the opportunity to throw out some of my junk. I got back my rather dismal results this morning and realized that my results this semester just used up my final lifeline. After a brief and frantic calculation... I realized that the situation CAN still be salvaged but it will require serious and hard work for the next 2 and a half years. I love what I am doing but I really dread the predicament I am in. Going on exchange is out of the picture for the rest of my academic career in NUS already. Its that bad. I guess I shouldn't have enjoyed myself TOO much during the academic year. I don't believe in crying over spilled milk so I doubt I am going to sob or bitch and whine over what has been done. I had a good time and I guess this is the price you pay for having a good time in Singapore. Everyone just surges ahead. I was complacent. Terribly complacent. I underestimated the competition in NUS and took things a tinge too easy. But then again lesson learnt. Painful as it is, it was a good lesson. Just as I had underestimated the competition, I overestimated the comfort I thought I'd have and the happiness I thought I'd get in other aspects of my NUS career, be it my sporting pursuits or my hall life. I was looking in all the wrong places. I realized I had my priorities the wrong way around all the time. One should be able to appreciate life BUT not at the cost of the very determinant of that quality of life in time to come. My foray into economics last semester proved to be an extremely costly experiment, with the devastating results impacting even my CAP this semester. Damage Control. That will be the central theme of 2010. Damage Control. Be it Armageddon, Deep Impact, 2012 or even AVATAR... upon the onset of some impending disaster, a hero will come forth and engage in some form of damage control and in so doing save the day in 2.5 hours. I've got about 2.5 years to salvage this mess and its high time that knight in shinning armor within me to save what's left of my tertiary academic career.