Reality Checked: Part 2

Its official. My application to France for a semester has been rejected. The bad news just doesn't stop coming so it seems. So where does this latest piece of news leave me? Well, I have always championed the fact that if you've got the guts to talk the talk, make sure when the time comes to walk the talk... you're willing to take that first step and more. I haven't been focused as of late and I guess my results took a beating as a result of the rather enjoyable time I have had as of late. My nonchalant attitude towards my academic pursuits have finally caught up with me and here I am left all alone in this boring island I call home whilst my peers go off to greener pastures to experience life as it is across borders. So here I am, bearing the consequences of my frivolous lifestyle, bitter and terribly upset at having been denied the opportunity of traveling overseas. Well I must reconcile with the fact that I have had a rather easy life thus far with me getting almost anything I want rather easily... and this without a doubt has quenched that hunger for more and left me too contented and way too complacent with myself and my capabilities. Now that I have re conciliated with harsh reality of my rather sorry state... what next?

Well, it seems that ever since my Clearwater race/trip, its been one reality check after the other for me, all of them harsh reality checks indeed. The truth hurts and I'll probably be thankful for feeling the pinch in time to come but right now... I am just bitter and pissed. I realized too that being nice and popular counts for shit when push comes to shove and ultimately... its the results that matter the most. So as of now, it is with great sadness that I announce that the Singapore education system has now claimed its latest victim... Me. I just buried the old me in the abandoned field beside my grass-run-route. No fanfare, no tears... just a blank face staring emotionlessly into silence and stillness of the night. Its been fun while it lasted I must say... and Thank you... Thank you very much for the memories.