Life as we (I) know it can be pretty chaotic and messy at times and its no surprising just how easy it is to loose oneself in the nooks and crannies of it. Everyone gets lost at point in time... its the length of time taken by the individual to regain his bearings that separates him from the lost souls around. I made a little vow a while back to turn things around by sometime at the start of this year but that doesn't seem to have gone too well. Taking into consideration the effort that my parents have put in into raisin me up thus far... I haven't have had much to show for it. As painful as it might be to sit back, and analyze the whole predicament I am in... it was absolutely necessary sit back and try and figure out just exactly what went wrong. I have identified a couple of issues and have taken steps to rectify those problems. I believe some of the changes I made a couple of months back have done me some good but that nagging fear to commit to these changes... thats what seems to have held me back from the ideal progress I should have been making. I don't like the way I am going to turn out in a year's time let alone when I graduate... so... tough as it might be... some things will have to change. I am going to climb my "五台山" and descend a better man... warrior... student... triathlete... :)
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